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Alive n' Free

2008-08-14T01:49:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my living,
Sit down while I undo my trimmings,
It's cold out, I'm glad you came by,
How did you recognize me.

Last night I saw Annie,
Like you she was ohhh very pretty,
Dark eyes, her name is Frank now,
She died in 1945 in this year of the night.

They said you come just like an ocean,
Come slain me, shame not my death,
Rise above the abyss into the open,
At the right moment.

There is hot, there is cold,
There is good, and there is evil,
If you look long enough,
There goes god and here is the devil.

Excuse me for asking,
But how did you get in,
There is hole in your heart,
That's how I got in.
Some days I dont remember what is like to be Alive n' Free.

Love is the fountain for an honest life,
Honour the bridge between love and strength,
Show me the man I was supposed to be,
He escapes me.

Are you leaving now?
My secret love, take me with you in my sleep,
To the stars above,
Hold me in you arms and let me feel your charm.
How I want to be Alive n' Free.

Hmong a tribe in our neighbour country hunted like amimals

2008-04-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

Hmong a tribe which lives peacefully as a normal civilians in village farming for their own food until they was hunted, slaughter, raped and killed like animals without mercy by the government's military. They live with fear and constantly running for their lives, everyday they have to bear the pain of losing their beloved one.

For whatever reason they government's military hunts them down its already history and its not their fault but the leaders greed that put them in this situation. It is too cruel to treat a human being especially children and woman this way. Here I wish to speak up their sorrow and let the world know about their heart aching life. These are the footage of the people who still able to live to tell the horrific experience.

I hope all of you who saw this video please embedded it or forward it around so that the entire world knows about this sad and heart breaking story. Why cant everyone live in peace instead of living worst then animals or beast.

Here are 10 footage of them for the first time gather their courage to speak in front of camera asking for the world to hear, witness and felt their sorrow.

Can Hmong be saved by United Nation? Do they actually lend a hand in ending this tragic massacres? To be continued in next 5 footage of video in next post

Trips ahead~!!!!!

2007-08-06T10:21:00.000-07:00

Ahhh been a while since i last travel, now waiting for the end of this year for my next trip. Indonesia and Singapore here I come..... Ju and I plan for this trip few months back. Just waiting for the right moment and of course $$$$ ahahah.

My last trip with Ju, as you guys can read in my previous post was an organized chaos. Anyway its fun though. Now our eyes are set on Indonesia and Singapore . Too many things need to buy again. Gonna go broke again ahahahhah.

1- New camera (aiming at new Olympus water proof cam)
2- Air Ticket
3-Package (Indonesia)
4-New Phone (Sony Erricson is nice) or maybe i-Phone
5-New BackPack

Dont know when Ju going to Chiang Mai, anyway sad cant join her for that cause have to work. Just have to cross mah finger that every project runs well this year so that next year I can follow Ju to Hong Kong again ahahha. Just hope that these trip wont be another organized chaos lol.

Life been kinda relax lately....every saturday is our shopping day. We dont go any mega mall instead every saturday morning end up in pasar pagi kepong buying food and grocery for the whole week's dinner. Been cooking alot lately and having friends crashing in for dinner on weekend. Nice home cooked food and some good wine and friends that are funny are just relaxing.

Old friends, like Adrian and Iceboy came back to life again after so long. Even though everyone is busy with own work. But still manage to come out once a while. Just cant wait for this weekend for seafood galore again with Ice and discuss some projects lol. Beside that, need to discuss with Ice on setting up his website so that Ju can post her creation and design on Beads and Jewellery for sale.

Whoever that reads my blog ( if theres is any ahahah) once the website is done. Maybe can check it out, might find some intresting things to buy though. Will post the website address once its done.

A Tribute to Merdeka

2007-07-18T19:24:00.000-07:00

This is a tribute to the coming Independance Day....MERDEKA~~!! MERDEKA~~!! MERDEKA~~!!

And who say Chinese cannot RAP.....

<------Check This Out

RESPECT ahaahahhha

Organized Chaos Trip

2007-06-26T20:06:00.000-07:00

THE BEACH

Came back from Redang a couple of weeks ago, adventurous trip this time. Just like the tittle of this post said, organized chaos. All started with the flight ticket, We booked the flight depart from LCCT to Kuala Terengganu on 8pm and depart from Terengganu 8.30am flight. Well everything seems fine now at least the air ticket been taken care of.

Then 2 days before the departure date only make reservation with the travel agent for package. Every where is fully booked and I was like damm this time in deep shit already. I keep searching and searching until I finally got Redang Holiday Beach Villa, I was relief for a while. Then the agent gave me another news, standard and deluxe all taken. The only room available is Semi D Villa. So no choice have to take also, then I make the reservation and paid everything. The agent process it and ask for my flight itinerary, so I gave him all the flight details. Then the 2nd problem came in.... the agent said " Mr Wong, I think we have a slight problem here because your departure time from Kuala Terrenganu is 8.30am. The boat transfer only available at 11.00 am morning from island to land. I'm afraid you will have to missed your flight,"

Dinning Area Sunrise Deck

Again I *&@#$)%^!(^% arghhhhh, so the conclusion is instead of 3 days 2 night. I have to stay 2 days 1 night in the island. The extra one day I have to spend in Kuala Terengganu :( what a boring place. Well at least now been taken care already accommodation and package. So the only things to do is get ready and packed for the trip.

3rd problem, one fine morning on the departure date. Crew from AirAsia called up and informed me that there is a slight changes on my departure time from LCCT to Kuala Terengganu. Instead of leaving at 8pm, they changed it to 5pm. And now I have to rushed all the way to the air port and I don't even have a Cab ready. Arghhhhhh, luckily manage to get one last minute and rushed all the way to airport 15 Min's before the gate closed. Phew what a relief...I checked in and board the plane at last.

Reach the island about noon, checked in and I was happy to see the semi D villa, not bad at all. Spend my time there swimming in open water and get tanned. For the first time I feel relaxed since last month. Good food, nice scenery and cool sea breeze....don't feel like leaving the island at all. Too bad I can only spend one night there and have to snap back reality, which is always cruel.

The next morning I woke up early before sun rise, sit on the beach and waited for the awake of the beauty of mother nature. The sun rises and it was so beautiful and peaceful, manage to get a couple of shots, but the resolution is bad cause using camera phone. Anyway do enjoy the moment. Then breakfast and packed up.....

4th problem, missed the boat to the land.... :(. Haihhhhh that time I was like whatever ler. Wont have another boat till tomorrow but I have to checked out dy. Anyway If I stay one more night I will missed the flight tomorrow. So have to talk to the resort management for extra arrangement, they agreed to let us stay till 3pm. Had a lunch and they will arrange with the ferry from Laguna. But we have to pay RM 40 each which is not too bad.

5th problem, so we stayed till 3pm, then the resort crew bring us to the jetty in Laguna which is about 15 to 20 min walk from the beach. When we reached the jetty, we saw the ferry already leaved. The crew called the captain using two way radio and the captain send a transfer boat to the land to transfer us to the ferry. At last on the way back to the main land.

At the main land, we checked in a budget hotel for one night. The walk around the town with a mission. One of them insist on looking for "GAO SI" (dog shit). Ahahaha, actually its Keropok Lekor. Well if not fried really look like "GAO SI". We bought some "GAO SI" for snack then go for seafood dinner. 4 person ate 6 dishes, Steam Fish, Vegetable, Wild boar meat, Crab, Prawn, and lala. I know its kinda crazy that why one of them eat until vomit once step out the restaurant. So stayed for a night and the next day fly all the way back to KL. What a interesting and adventurous trip. Here are some picture to share on my organized chaos trip.

To the summit of Kinabalu

2007-06-06T19:56:00.000-07:00

Wanted to do this a long long time ago......chasing clouds and watching sun rise and set on top of the highest mountain in Malaysia. The scene is just extraordinary and breath taking. Well it just stop you from breathing for a few second with its beauty.

Sunrise

Peak of Mount K.K

The temperature is very very cold during dawn and nigh time its like freezing. Not much vegetation on the top of it. Got to visit this place for those adventurous type, its a place worth going and experience the beauty of mother nature.

Back to the blue

2007-06-03T10:42:00.000-07:00

Well will be gone in 8 more days, back to the blues and sands again. Flight already done, just that dont know where to stay yet.....but not a problem, just cant wait to leave this place for a moment. Wont be a dive trip this time, waiting for my dive buddy gonna be to be certified lol.

I guess things wont be the same again, everyday is a new day. Gonna start a new after this trip and just have to believe that things will always be better. Damm got to get my sexy back after this trip.

Old time friends

2007-05-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

Well tonight been a good night, good dinner and good food. Got this call out of the blue from a friend of mine which I thought I would never see again. Well we used to have dispute 3 years ago and I thought thats the end of the friendship.

But today Im glad to received his call although Im in clinic again *dang*. But his call cheers me up, well abviously im not gay * or am I ??* ahahaha. I sure do miss him, Ice called me out for dinner and we hang out at a Thai restaurant chit chat and have a couple of booze. Dig back all the good old times we spend together and laugh about the stupid things be used to do. Things sure do changed after 3 years. Ice changed, not all but have a better temper and more focus on what he do and want.

Life been tough its like on and off thingy but still able to manage it. I guess its all gonna pass and tomorrow always will be a better day, well I guess thats the least I can do for now. As for work, ermmm doesnt goes very well. Just can do my best and hope that dont have to shut the entire operation down cause that the only things I have now. Dont even dare to think of losing my job for this moment. This is life I guess, sometimes shit do turns sour and we cant do anything about it.

Memories of an Angel

2007-05-11T12:24:00.000-07:00

A thought we shared,
A life we lived,
A love we had that I never forget,

Good and bad times we pull it through,
Till the day our love gone tough,
A broken heart a tears I shed,
Though love can have much pain,

But for knowing and loving you so much I gained,
God's fairest child an Angel I have known,
My soul you have touched my heart you have lighten,

Good-bye my love,
Although we are over,
But always I will remember,

For the love we once had so much,
For all the adventures we've been through,
And all the first time that we have put together,

Since my heart is all shattered,
Now I guess only memories I sheltered,
Till the day we meet again,
Hope that our love will once regained.

Saved a life today

2007-05-03T10:28:00.000-07:00

Woke up middle of the night today and it reminds me of my childhood experiance that nearly tooked my life. Asthma, strikes again tonight but the victim is not me. It was my housemate who was sleeping and started to cough badly. After about an hour of coughing he starts to feel difficult to breath and have the whistling sound whenever he take a breath.

It quickly reminds me of my childhood nemesis, yes Asthma strikes again and I took him all the way to clinic because he fell like the air cant reach his lungs and felt dizzy. So I knew he is having problem cause oxygen are not delivered to his brain. We rushed to clinic and the doctor quickly put in on a machine and some medication for him to breath which helps to expand his lungs.

At that moment, my childhood fears comes back and I have all this flashback the night it nearly took my life away. I started to have goosebumps around my neck whenever I think of it. Then I stay with my housemate for a while in the surgery room until I slowly see him recovering and starts to breath easily.

Im glad he is alright now, Cause these things strike without warning and sometimes when no one is around you just feel so helpless and you cant even scream for help cause you are running out of air. The feeling is like diving with an empty tank, no matter how hard you suck the air it just doesnt reach ur lungs. (Divers will know that kind of feeling).

Well I guess life is short, learn to cherish what you have in life and the people that you loved and loves you. Cause you dont know when you are going to lose them. But Im glad tonight I did saved my housemate's life. Ohh yeah it has been 2 years plus since I last drove a manual car, and tonight I guess i perform very well. Drive like a pro so thumbs up for myself.

Korean Composser "Yiruma"

2007-04-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since I last listen to Yiruma's song. He is a great composer and his medley are also so soothing and beautiful. I don't mind to admit that I feel in love with his song the very first time I listen to it. His Album "First Love" and the song I love the most in this album is "River Flows in You".

I dont know how many people actually know Yiruma but for those who love to watch Korean Drama they might heard before his medley for example the soundtrack if "Winter Sonata". Anyway this is one of his clips that I manage to find and its my favourite song.

" RIVER FLOW'S IN YOU"

I always wanted to play piano when I was a kid. I don't know maybe you guys might think its not a macho thing for a guy to play piano or its a girl thingy or toys. To me piano is a very beautiful piece of instrument and you can express your feelings through the song you play. Anyway I just intend to share this beautiful medley with anyone who are into piano.

How to mess up your life

2007-03-27T08:32:00.000-07:00

I saw this book a couple of weeks ago during my day out with Cindy and her friend in Midvalley. We were looking for a shipping law book when I came a cross this little book which is sitting on a shelf in the Self Motivation Section. It was the tittle that catches my attention.

The tittle says............

I was like, are you kidding me? Can anyone publish such book and will there be any buyer? So I decided to flip a couple of pages. Then I saw the chapters inside are much more intresting. 1st chapter: How to get dump, 2nd chapter: How to get fired fast, 3rd chapter: How to get angry and the rest I forgot। I was like cool, this is intresting ahahaha। But too bad Cindy and her friend are going for facial (ladies what to do) so we have to leave MPH. I walk around in Midvalley while waiting for Jane to finish with her training cause I need to fetch her. After a while she called and says that she is done with her training which is , 3 hours earlier then the time I expected because she told me they will finish around 6pm. So I hop in my ride in the parking lot and speed off to fetch her. After that we come back to Midvalley to join Cindy and her friend. Anyway it was a good day out and about that book, when I go Midvalley again ( I dont know when cause I seldom go there, they have limited parking and it takes your 20 to 30 min to get a parking. Sometimes hours) I will definitely drop by to check out and read a couple of pages to see what is the actual content of the book. Anyway like the old saying " You cant judge the book by its cover".

Indian Park (Sorry Linkin Park Fans)

2007-03-22T23:03:00.000-07:00

Linkin Park is coming to town very soon, in fact around the month of MAY. To all the Linkin Park Fans dont miss out their concert. I went to their pervious concert and it was a great one. Alot of die hard Linkin Park Fans with poster and so on, it was just amazing that so many people shows up during that concert. I guess the Linkin Park fever is on again, if you dont believe check this video out. This guys are just superb ahahaha.

Saving and encoding Youtube video in your computer

2007-01-30T23:23:00.000-08:00

Okay this is the first post that are not craps. I guess its time for me to contribute something to everyone. For those of you who visit Youtube frequently and sometimes came across some video that no matter what you really got to have it...... well i guess this is a good news for you.

I have been cracking my head to figure out how to save those files in Youtube a long long time. And few days back my girl ask me the same question and I guess its time for me to find out how and teach her. Okay lets start the lesson : -

Step 01:- Ingredients

-FLV Player (as you know all Youtube files are in FLV format)
-FLV Encoder ( to convert FLV files into any files you want e.g MPG or WMV)
-www.keepvid.com ( to locate the Youtube files)

As for the FLV Player you can use RIVA FLV Player and you can get it at www.rivavx.com. There you can find the encoder too so it will ease you a little bit. Then you log onto this web site www.keepvid.com and with this website you can locate the Youtube file and save it in your hard drive.

Step02:- Saving the FLV file.

Log on Youtube and choose your favourite file. Then copy its URL, then turn to keepvid.com and paste it in the white long bar on top of the web page. Then you will see download at the bottom of the white long bar. Right click and save it to your hard drive. Remember that the file you saved is still under FLV format. Now you can play the file with RIVA player.

Step 03:- Encoding

Fire up your RIVA FLV encoder, the first white bar labeled with (Input) and you will see a Browse button. Click on it to look for the video that you have saved in your hard drive. Then on the second white bar labeled (Output) this is where the converted files will be saved. On the third white bar you will see its labeled with Destination Video File. Here you will notice the file is in .flv format. You need to change it to the format that you wish to convert e.g wmv or mpg format.

Then look for the encode button located at the left of the encoder. Click on it, and it normally take a few seconds. Finally you will have your favourite Youtube video on your computer all for yourself.

If you still don't understand how to do it. I have a special gift for you due to the hours i spend looking for it. http://www.lifehacker.com/software/video-demonstration/weekend-project-save-and-convert-a-youtube-video-205974.php . I believe this guy may be able to guide you through the whole process.

That's all for our lesson now. Hope that my research may help you guys and now I'm off to teach my girl how to do it. Enjoy ya videos

Lets Learn Engrish

2006-11-15T18:27:00.000-08:00

LETS LEARN ENGRISH TODAY~~!!!

Sometimes when you travel...do notice some sign boards or menu of any restaurant and you will find something interesting. Yes I'm talking about Engrish, I don't know how many of you here knows about this language or they actually exist.

But believe me, they are widely spread throughout the world. This phenomena spread like virus especially in Asia Countries. And in some part of the country, it has become a serious problem. You fella might think I'm talking cock here or nonsense.....but lets start the class.

BEHOLD THE POWER OF ENGRISH~~!!!!!!

Err.....anyone want to be De-Hornyed?????

Can I have a Beef Burger and some FRENCH FLIES please.... ??? wow

Look, lodgers - just eat it, OK?....... You dont have to understand what the phrase means ( Can anyone tell me what is the meaning of that phrase ?) Have me enjoy material in season of all over Japan direct from the field what and increase

Too many titties...too little time

Anyone need Viagra???

Okay, thats all for our Engrish Class for today. See you guys on next lesson where we will learn more Engrish.

Back from Tioman in conjuction with Project Aware

2006-09-27T20:51:00.000-07:00

My dive buddy and I (perfect match?)

Just came back from my dive trip in Tioman, not a bad experiance and plenty of fishes over there. Even under the jetty are full of tiny little fishes....im talking about hundred of thousand of em swimming together. The 1st impression for me when i saw such a big school of fish is, holly mamamia they look like "Leong Fun" ( Cincau) wahahahaaha. The resort not bad, clean room and spacious, food is good and they even have a waterfall at the back of the resort. Too bad I didnt have a chance to have a dip in it.

And guess what ? The island is duty free~~~!!!!!!.........Hell ya, can drown yourself with beers and liquour all night long. Besides that the island is smokilicious, cause they still sell Dunhill Lights at RM 4.20 wahahahaah. As for those shopping freak, too bad nothing much to buy here.

During one of our trip, after our dive at some tiny island. Like usual, Im always the 1st one who ran out of air. So we have to ascend and get on board the dive boat. While we are on board, we gather up with the other dive members. I sense something is going on through their facial expression. Something is not right, so after I take off all my gears I approached one of them.

I was so shock and sad when i came to know that they actually witness a foreign diver from another dive team ( thanks god its not one of our member) struggling for survival as his dive buddy trying to save him. They said they when he surface with his dive buddy, he is already shaking all over. They conducted CPR but cant save him. We dont know the cause of death, maybe its because of Lungs Expension and blowed up his lung when he surfaced too fast. For the whole afternoon my mind keeps on imagining the moment he struggle for his life. Just so sad nia to see a diver died.

The sun starts to set and we head back to the island for dinner. The dinner was great, after our dinner we did some chit chatting. I starts to put away the incident of the dead diver which happend that afternoon until one of our fren bring out the topic again. -_-. This is where I feel like " Wat DaFcuk, dengz, fcukshit arghhhhh dulan" the diver actuallyis not dead. He and his team of divers are actually taking Rescue Course. -_- (sienz jor). But deep inside im glad also cause no one actually died. Phew Anyway, Tioman is a good dive site.

Planning for my next destination now which is on November......Kaleebso here I come. Heard many stories about you, good one and even bad one too. Curiousity seems to struck me and the urge to set foot on you seems overwhelming. I must see and leave my foot prints on you, mighty Kaleebso. Heard before Kaleebso? been before Kaleebso? what is Kaleebso? wanna know about it?Then.......... JOIN US IN THE NEXT EPISODE OF THE........ Adventure with the X-FOOLS~~!!!!!

Certified PADI Diver at last~~~~!!!!!!!!!

2006-09-13T00:43:00.000-07:00

I just obtained my PADI diver's license and hell ya im happy about it. Did a couple of dive's in redang last month and the experiance is superb. Swim around the fishes, breath underwater, get the chance to be up close with marine lifes. Anyway im going for my second trip for diving again but this time is in Pulau Tioman with Jane. Ohh yeah we took our license together ahaha. And guess what she is my dive buddy and my Gf. Perfect huh... :P.

During our previous dive I got the chance to touch a life and wild Sting Ray. That fella just lay flat on the floor and let us touch him. And I like night dive the most, although its dark but we are equiped with underwater torch. The feeling is totally diffrent and saw alot of nocturnal sea creatures too. The most unforgetable moment is when I saw a sea turtle having its dinner. It was such a beautiful creature, swimming gracely in the water. When we off all of our torch, and wave our hand in the water.....something special happend in that pitch dark water.

We saw tiny plankton actually glows....just like little tiny fire flies (just that its in the water). I guess they call em Bioluminescence. Cant wait for my second dive trip to Tioman and like all divers like to say " I think Im running out of Nitrogen"... :)

But I was actually sad during 5th of September. It is because a loveable Naturalist passed away. I have been watching Steve Irwin's programs for a long time and I really like his works. Although sometimes he is like playing a fool with the animals. But deep down inside he really make a huge changes in how people see such animals like Crocodile (His favourite animal), snakes and so on. It is a great lost for such a good person to die in such a tragic accident.

Anyway, its not the Sting Ray's fault because normally this creature they are passive and if they attack, they are just trying to defend themself. So to those Ausies out there, please stop killing sting rays. I dont think Steve will agree you guys doing such things to revenge his death. I think he would like us to continue his work to protect any living creatures so that they wont get extinct due to human cause.

As for me, I will continue doing my part and my activites for Marine Conservation Projects, and maybe organise another voluntery work in Zoo Negara to educate people about these animals. Okay thats all for now....and rest in peace Steve, your work and all your efforts are not worthless.

Mother Nature is angry jeezzzz

2006-04-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

Been a while since the last blog i posted..anyway a month have past in this new office of mine. Starting an office and business from scraps really a pain in the ass....however keep on telling mahself, thats the growing pain that everyone have to bear.

I think mother nature is angry with mah office....why say so??? well everyday she shakes mahh office like an earth quake. My room is shaking, the floor is shaking, my monitor and she wont even leave my cup of coffee alone. I guess she just decide to make Coffee Shake ehh (err never had before coffee shake...do they exist????). I dont know what makes or shakes my office...it might be a huge trucks or earth quake???? yaiksss mamamiaaa

Man..this place is just so....ermm how should i put the word ???? diffrent from the previous office which im in. I got a fish or should I say a fresh seafood supplier as a neighbour (most of the fish already dead). It makes the neighbourhood smells like a huge fish market. Smell like Alam Flora everyday. Sometimes i can even find " Far Hai" ( Flower Crab ) lying dead in the middle of the street ahaha. And even prawns....and so on, tons of cats & dogs walking freely and sometimes come in the my office compound....

Anyway since im an animal lover i just leave them alone....but why they always have to poo poo (shit) everywhere. Its like land mines, especially those damm cats, always hide their poo poo under the sand. Without noticing, you have already step on one of those shietty pan cakes.

Nothing much to eat around this area...all they have are just those tiny stall beside the road where they serve malay food and everyday eating the same old shiet. Have to eat my lunch under the tree everyday with a huge river beside. Full of mozzies happily sucking away my blood as their lunch. Seems like on my forehead theres a sign saying " Buffet Lunch, All You Can Suck". Damm those mozzies bitches ( only female mozzies sucks blood) and Mr Flies keep looking for chance to dive into my food.

Seems like a so adventurous eh...wat to do have to get used to it. Sometimes I wish my American boss is around, cause whenever he is around all the Mozzies seems to get attracted to him....maybe its because these Mozzies are typical Malaysian Mozzies. Imported goods are always the best ahahahahha.

Okay thats all for now...ciaoz peeps

Turning Point Of Life

2006-03-28T19:30:00.000-08:00

This is my first craps here.......2 more days i will leave this company of mine, after working here for 3 long years. Been thinking alot about the new challenge ahead and doubting this and that. At last make up my mind and my final decision to leave and venture into something new and a whole nude world opsss typo error ahaha..its whole new world out there. Lucky i still have my family and my little devil (SMG) support me. You guys are the best and greatest....muahhhhhhhh.

Lately been indulging myself with all sort of fast food, from Mcshit, to Burger King and later today lunch Dominos pizza....yaiks. All of this fast food are killing me....miss all the mini shirt i used to wear and all those cool t-shirt and pants :(. For Christ sake...i just cant help myself from taking a bite on those Burgers and Pizzas...espesially Beef Pepperoni.yumm yumm..ohh yeah and not to mention the Hot Dogs in One Utama. (Honey we need to get em....this Thursday when we watch movie Muahahahahaha). Even wake up in the 1st thing on my mind Beef Pepperoni ahahah....

Anyway...life gonna be diffrent after this month. Hope that I have made a right decision and this will be my chance to do things for myself and my future. It aint gonna be easy but.... like this saying : -

A PERSON WHO TAKE RISK AND FAIL CAN BE FORGIVEN BUT A PERSON WHO DONT TAKE RISK AND NEVER FAIL ARE A FAILURE OF THE WHOLE BEING.

Thats all the craps for today.....adioz amigoz